I sit here with my fingers on the computer keys (not budging), realizing that perfectionism is keeping me from starting. Thoughts like: “how do I start?”, “I want to sound good”, “I want the best intro to grab their attention” ramble through my mind.
But wait…who’s “their”?
I am aware that probably no one will read those post within the next hour, day, month, or maybe year. Who am I trying to impress? Who am I trying to please? These are the questions I seem to have to ask myself frequently. If my answer is not God then I need to redirect my focus. I need more Jesus. So, in light having to ask those questions I’m going to direct this post – the very first OTMM blog post – to the One who ordained this calling and this ministry, to the One who transformed my life and the lives of my dear Tina and Michelle. It is only Him we are here for. I hope along this journey we are able to share our experience and the love that took us from where we were to where we are and ultimately to where we’re going.
To my Lord –
I call you mine because you are. But God, I am humbled and overwhelmed that the only reason I can call You and call on You is because You loved me first. You loved Your people first. Thank You for loving us and giving us Jesus to be our Way. I say that so lightly but I know in the depths of me there’s no way to voice that statement comparable to the weight it carries. Lord, I pray for On the Move Ministries and for the journey You have set before Michelle, Tina, and I. Thank you for Your Word, declaring truth over us and pouring life into us. We are thrilled to be a part of Your grand story and we desperately desire to live lives worthy of the call You have placed upon us. As I sit here and pray, faces and names sweep across my mind – women that are hurting, lost, burdened, and flat out exhausted. We are here for THEM Lord. We are here to be Your hands and feet, Your mouth and ears. Now more than ever we need more of You, more of Your Spirit to guide us, to convict us, to teach us, and to discern for us. We simply want to honor You, to glorify You God. I pray we daily return to our Truth, our Way, and our Life which is only found in Your Son, Jesus. I pray we trust in who You are, to continually be outside our comfort zones because it is there that our hearts will be longing for Jesus. We want to stay hungry for Him, for You. We want to be bold and courageous, boasting in our weakness, NOT insecure of it because it is there that Your strength will be shown to others. I pray for protection over this ministry, over our families and marriages, and over those who will be a part of On the Move. I pray women come to know how wide and long and high and deep Your love is. Thank you God for Your faithfulness, for Your grace, for Your mercy, and with our hearts wide open – for Your Son in whom we live and have our purpose.
Thank You God for who You are and who You’ve always been.
In Your precious Name we pray, Amen.
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I am in awww at how u have put god’s love, grace and mercy into such an amazingly written passage. Wow! May God continue to guide you.